Existential Questions and Coming Into My Own


Over the summer I was blessed with the opportunity to attend The Blogcademy. Again. Gala, Kat, & Nubby are three of my blogger-idols, and to not only have the chance to meet them, but to get to know them a little bit better and pick their brains about my baby blog has been a dream come true. I am eternally grateful for all the wisdom they have imparted my way and also for their never ending support and interest in my life as a blogger.

In case you didn’t get the memo - I recently decided to scrap the Little Bear Big World title of my blog and move my posts under the npamani umbrella. It was a really tough decision to make, but I’m really happy with my choice in the end.

I had a great conversation with the fabulous Gala about how Little Bear Big World was an accurate representation of who I used to be, but it wasn’t necessarily who I currently am and who I want to be in this industry. Little Bear Big World was great for chronicling my travels, trials, and tribulations during college and my explorations of the world beyond my campus. But I’m not in college anymore. And I’m no longer writing about those things. My blog has most definitely grown up with me and is now a platform to discuss mental health tips, finding your business zen, innovative digital media strategies, NYC happenings, music, food, culture, and so much more. It’s a platform for sharing and expanding on all the things that are at the core of my very being.

For that reason, restructuring an npamani blog and planning an editorial calendar to reflect that change has felt rather organic and easy for me. This blog is FINALLY back to something that doesn’t feel like a chore - writing here seems effortless and an extension of my very being. It’s as though the words I type are simply flowing out of my fingertips and into your eyeballs. (Ok, maybe that’s where we’ll draw the line.)

I am a passionate person when it comes to so many things. I have opinions and standards and expectations and I make no apologies for it. I embrace my personality and I allow it to seep into all aspects of my life - as it should! Who I am and what I do are very much intertwined.

I have to be confident in who I am and I have to trust my gut. If I want to write about slightly controversial topics, I need the freedom to do so. And let's be honest, if you're not toeing the line you're probably just going to get lost in the masses/abyss.

Gala said something to me that I cannot get out of my head: “You can be the first. You can be the best. Or you can be the only.”

Well, being the first lifestyle blogger is certainly out of the question. Being the best might be difficult. But being the only? I can definitely do that. There’s nobody who’s better at being Nicole Pamani than me - and that’s a fact!

The Only Me I See

I am the only me I know… and I love the me I see. I’m ready to take my experiences, thoughts, secrets, lessons, observations, advice and more PUBLIC. I’m ready for the world to see my unique blend of traits and decide for themselves if they want to come along for the ride of life I’m on. It would be honor to bring you with me. And I can guarantee that nobody else will be able to provide the Nikbear experience.

So let's ask that big, scary question again: WHO AM I? Answer? I am me. I am fierce, smart, kind, giving, hardworking, curious, short but not small, always learning, and most importantly THE ONLY. It's not so much about who I am, but rather what I bring to the table. And I bring a whole lot. AND SO DO YOU!

Remember, friends, you can always choose to be the only and have that be more than enough in life. If you're ready to tap into your only and learn how to share it (and profit from it) - be sure to sign up for my newsletter and check out my services. You have so much to offer. And I promise that the world is ready for your one-of-a-kind broadcast.

With love and gratitude, xx Nikbear