Happy (belated) Valentine's Day friends! Whee!! Red roses and chocolates for everyone! In a perfect world, I would actually be able to afford to send red roses and champagne and delicious gourmet chocolates to all the people I love and adore. But until I reach that state of financial freedom, I will just continue to buy myself a box of CVS brand chocolate and enjoy a nice quiet night with a bottle (or two) of semi-decent wine.
This year for Valentine's Day I'm making a vow to love myself better. Part of that means recognizing that sometimes I have to let go of things that are inherently bad for me.
In this world, it is much easier to find 99 things that DON'T fit in your life than the 1 thing that DOES.
Nobody's got their whole life figured out in his/her early 20's. AND THAT'S TOTALLY OK. It's no reason to constantly get down or feel bad or worry about how things are going to get 'back to the plan.' I used to do that. Heck, I still do. But it's always nice to be able to remind myself that I'm not really expected to have all the answers just yet. To be completely honest, I don't know ANYONE that has ALL the answers... although my Dadaji comes pretty freaking close.
I love myself. Very much. And I love all the decisions I have made that brought me to this place because in my gut, I always know that I'm doing the right thing. I am a firm believer in following your gut, because if you don't listen to your instincts, you'll only land up hating yourself more later when it turns out those gut feelings had a point.
Am I still making sense? I hope so. Anyways, let's rehash really quick and then it shall be time for bed.
More self love. More self trust. Less self hate. Less panic. = More good. EVERYTHING'S GOING TO BE ALL RIGHT.
Sending you lots of hugs and chocolate flavored kisses, xx Nikbear