Hello friends. Happy February! How we have already reached the second month of 2012 is beyond my level of comprehension. Where does the time go? Seriously. The past couple days have been a bit of a roller coaster in the life of Nikbear. I've come to terms with a lot of truths in my life. Some of them I was happy to accept, others I reluctantly accepted. All this reflection and self-analysis has been exhausting, but totally worth it.
I think it's really important for people to set aside a day or two where they stop EVERYTHING they are so used to doing in their routine. I call these Mental Health Days. There may not be anything physically wrong with you, but you've reached a point of near insanity and it's time to take a breather. Take a day for yourself, catch up on sleep, cook a nice homemade meal, read a book, treat yourself to a glass of wine, and just take a deep breath to reflect on everything in your life that has been driving you crazy.
That's what I did this week. And it totally paid off. I found myself after being lost for nearly three weeks. It's the little things that tend to add up - the fact that I was working 13-14 hours a day, 5 days a week; the fact that I hadn't seen my friends since my birthday; the fact that my apartment looked like it had been hit by a category 5 hurricane; the fact that I hadn't gotten a full night's sleep in forever. Add up all those things and you get one very crazy looking little bear.
Life wasn't fun anymore. It wasn't happy. It wasn't something I was excited about when I would wake up in the mornings. So I took a step back, gave myself a mental health day, and figured out what WOULD make me happy again.
I'd like to think that mental health days are essential in the process of becoming a functioning grown up. And if they aren't, well at least know that they are essential for ME. I feel a million times better, and I'm 100% happy with the decisions I've made to get here.
Don't forget to take care of yourselves, friends. I'm not just talking about eating right and basic hygiene... we are fragile creatures. We are easily overwhelmed and easily convinced that prolonged unhappiness is necessary to reach a state of happiness. NOT TRUE. Everyone has a right to happiness. When you work as hard as we do, we should at least love what we do and how we do it and WHY we do it.
Feeling like a million bucks, xx Nikbear