Solitary Reflection

  Hello friends and followers. I am so, so sorry that I have been MIA for the last two weeks.

At the start of the year, I took a plunge. And I would be lying if I didn't say that it scared the hell out of me. I made a big change in my life and I suddenly started questioning whether or not it was the right decision.

Did I just made the biggest mistake of my career? Am I being unreasonable? Is this immature and stupid? Have I just f*cked up royally?

Needless to say, I needed to take a step back and run away from the reality of it all temporarily. Enter my disappearance to the west coast for a week of solitary reflection, contemplation, and all around calming of my nerves.

I took the time to reassure myself that this was the best decision for me for right now. I needed to stop focusing on what everything and everyone told me I should be doing, and focus on what I want to be doing. I needed to remind myself that this is the time to take big risks and follow my dreams.

My frosted tree of dreams

When you dive head first into a big life change, you need to give yourself time to process it. It's like taking a real world, all encompassing deep breath.

There is no User's Manual for life. (And even if there was, I'm pretty sure that 99% of us would refuse to read it.) But maybe it's a good thing. When it comes to living, who's to say what works best? As far as I know, there is no fool proof formula for success....

Am I terrified of what the future holds? Yes. But I'm also thrilled to be here, at this point in my life. I feel more inspired and motivated than ever. I feel alive. And in the end, isn't that the whole point of this crazy ride called life?

Throwing seven different kinds of smoke, xx Nikbear