Take Charge

I recently started a new business venture with my dad. It's been super exciting, but here's the problem.... I don't know anything about the business of buying/importing goods in bulk and I know even less about managing corporate finances.... And here's the kicker: my dad's out of the country till November.

ENTER PANIC MODE! HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO HANDLE THESE THINGS WITH NO GUIDANCE? OH MY GOD, WHAT IF I MESS IT ALL UP? I'M NOT PREPARED FOR THIS! WHAT DID I JUST SIGN UP FOR?

*Deep breath* ....

*Calm down* ....

As much "fun" as it was to panic for almost a whole day about the magnitude of this responsibility compared to how alone I was and how little I knew about the job, panicking wasn't about to help me get through my work. Hunkering down, taking charge and using the Google machine to research and learn would. So that's what I did.

There's a great line from a not-so-great show (Lost): I'd let the fear in, let it take over, let it do its thing, but only for five seconds, that's all I was going to give it. So I started to count: one, two, three, four, five. Then it was gone. 

That's pretty much how I felt about the whole experience. I let the fear in, I allowed myself to panic, and then I kicked my ass back into gear and rocked the shit out of my tasks.

It's a great feeling of accomplishment to have a task at hand that you know nothing about and complete it successfully with very little help from others. It's a great feeling to take charge of the situation and deny yourself the opportunity for failure.

I could have just as easily curled up in the corner and said "I'll just wait till my dad gets home" or "I'll just let someone else handle this until they have time to teach me how to do it on my own." But I didn't. I faced the challenge head on. I double and triple checked my information before acting out the operations. And I came out on top.

TAKE THAT, FEAR.

Kicking ass and taking names,
xx Nikbear